ive read your post 3 hours ago. it is now 2.28 in the morning. i have been thinking about this for over 3 hours. i need to be up by 6.30
Therefore you should understand that the following is created with limited sleep and energy, therefore possibly lacking a filter. context: me and jovanny discussed on this project’s future
this “essay” is a combination of a final “speech”, “goodbye”, a strong self reflection and a Thanks to all of the forum fighter crew, jovanny and myself. if you are wondering why some parts dont apply to you its because they dont.
ill start by talking about what i can interprate from your advice on the game.
We have taken on a incredibly difficult challenge without the tools or knowledge required to accomplish it.
Forum fighters is a big project, so big that 30+ people over the course of 2 years could not make a significant dent in it. this is not a shocker nor a disappointment. i wouldnt be surprised that even half of us were allowed to be on the forums when the project started due to our age.
however even ignoring our lack of motivation and knowledge an impossible challenge lies just a little way down the road: the fact wick isnt the strongest engine. you are right, it functions perfectly for new and esprireing coders and game makers to test the waters, trying to figure out whither the path of game making is the path they want to take. The problem comes when the limits of this engine are tested. this engine wasn’t designed with the possibility of making a full fledged game, its mostly for people to make flappy bird remakes, repeating atuo scrollers or silly games that are ment to spark something in you, not be the base of your next big project or your career. This is my fault for trying to force something out of something it cant make.
what does this mean? The End
forum fighters is like a big tree trying to grow in a small pot, we are the gardeners trying all we can but its just not possible. i shouldnt have been blinded by my own ambition, no wonder this topic is so dead and dried out, no wonder you guys are so tired. who wants to play a game that runs on 6 fps?! or even 13 with the help of external resources (aka pkhead literally modifying the editor itself)
it hurts to let go and it hurts to say this: this is The End of FF’s journey on the wick editor. and its not the engine’s or your fault, it was my ignorance.
what does this mean for you? specifically Baron, Pkhead, H.a, Kringles and myself?
you four are the ones that stuck with me and this project for 2 whole years, all of you contributing more to the actual project then i ever could or did.
All of you have shown an incredible amount of talent in this project.
Baron, you have crafted the engine that FF runs on. the base of our operations, the gravity the hit boxes, nearly all of it is you.
Pkhead, most likely having the most knowledge of coding between us, was able reform the editor itself to better fit the project as well as come up with a way to possibly create multiplayer within the editor.
H.a, you have shown that your knowledge of this topic is approaching professional levels. whats more in just the recent days youve shown that you have a strong character of determination, a kind and willful heart and a go getter attitute, traits that im sure will carry you through all walks of life. im sorry for taking all the time you put into this project and wasting it.
Kringles, you are a remarkable example of man with many talents. ive seen your abilty to create music, art, animation, coding AND concept design firsthand. you have a lot of potential. not to mention your character being a key part of your what you do!
im sorry for sucking the joy out of the things you love.
as one of the project heads (not leader) i give one last task. move on from the editor to greater places, greener pastures and bigger pots to grow your projects in. We as a team have grown past what the editor can provide.while im sure we all have our reasons for wanting to stay we’ll simply not be able to grow if we do. big plants need big pots.
go, even if not professionally. we all had our star projects we wanted to do.
if game design or programing is your future you cant stay in this nowhere town of the wick forums.
if you plan to make more ambitions works then you WILL hit a ceiling.
its better to move on now. trust me.
now a self reflection:
like i referenced earlier you all have your star projects. FF is mine, which by itself explains why im writing a massive essay to send off it. i jumped on the bandwagon of this project and regarded it as my own. if i managed to find all of them i problely have 40 pages of paper of varying sizes dedicated to the planning of this game. have spent many over 60 hours trying to draw a bee, hair and a person with no eyes. ive written at least 17 full word doc pages on the potential lore of this game and ive spent years trying to keep this plant alive. now i realize what im doing, just giving in to a dream.
unlike the most of you i do not desire for this to become my profession. best way possible: i was doing this because i wanted to, because designing a really sick enemy gave me a sense of self-pride i never felt. because designing a concept for a feature gave me passion, because it made me happy. for awhile it was an obsession, now its no longer.
i plan to study the topic of horticulture, maybe agriculture if my adjestions to my study life are effective. believe me i still love the idea of a becoming a game designer, but the task is too tall for me, and the path is a dangerous one. now a days designing a game is competition, a competition with uncertaincy ; a obstacle that i cant get over.
therefore i decide to choose a safe route.
but, this does not mean I give up. FF is a challenge i have taken on.in the future ill spend more of my free time learning JS, learning to animate, sound design, math, drawing humans and more. it might take a 3 years, 5,9 ormore but i dont care! the altimate gaol of the forum fighters is to make sure when someone plays this game, they’ll smile. and that’ll be good enough of a reward for me.
god my eyes hurt hehheh
i thank the wick editior for existing, for teaching me that my dreams can be possible, for teaching me that i can do something… and teaching me how to move on.
thank you to me crew, to sticking with me for these couple of years
and i especially thank you @Jovanny for helping me come to this conclusion, perhaps its time for you to move on too? maybe those collage students may use this forum and bring new life into it. The forums is a like a small town, not much conflict or evil happens here.
However there are worlds out there that need a light like you, and you know God doesnt want us to stay rooted and comfortable :)
i will be leaving this tiny but wonderful town soon, off to a bigger greenhouse to make my masterpiece! meaning there’s a good chance i might never meet you again. but ill make sure to shake your hand in “person” when he returns, if you get what i mean ;)
it is now 4.07. oh lord
good bye FF crew, you guys are in my current list best people on the internet. remain passionate, determined and hungry and foolish! take the risks and go concor the online world! ill make sure the food keeps growing
Thank you and have a nice future. Long live the Forum Fighters!
-> Amos C### T##### (Tryo) (heh, noticed how my initials spell out ACT? you should do that)